It's been awhile since I last wrote and what can I say? Planning a wedding when you are younger and don't have a child (or a job) makes for a much smoother planning process. :) However, with that said, it warms my heart to share all the little details with my Muppet and hear him exclaim with such joy in his heart that he "can't wait" for the MusicMan to be his dad and live here.
I won't lie I was worried how the whole "this will be your other daddy" conversation would go with Muppet. But again, my little (wiser than his years) man put things in a whole new perspective. One day after picking him up from his after school care we started in our routines of sharing what was each of our favorite parts of the day and anything that might have happened that we might need a hug for. No, I don't share with Ethan really bad things, but I do share when the Internet goes down at work or Mommy forgot to save her work and had to start a project over. I want him to know that we all make mistakes and have bad days - it's a part of life.
However, this day after our little conversation the car went quiet for a moment. I glanced up in the rear view mirror just long enough to see him put his tiny hand to his chin, gazing out the car window. I glanced back to the road and the mental image of The Thinker popped instantly into my thoughts. Then suddenly from the back seat the silence was broken and I heard, "Mommy, you know God blessed me twice?"
"Twice? How so?" I wandered quickly through my thoughts trying to anticipate his response and what mine would be in turn.
"I have two daddies. God gave me two daddies. One in the sky and one on the earth." (Insert happy loving sigh as he looked back out the car window.)
I didn't know what to say. All my energy was being focused on trying to hold the tears back and hide my reaction behind my sunglasses. Here was my little Muppet who is now almost as tall as I am and has the most amazing sense of perspective, love and positive outlook on life (more than I could personally hope to have in all my lifetime). I've come to realize that Ethan is more than a gift from God, he is sign and tool of God's grace and goodness. Ethan's life could have turned out completely different, but Ethan himself chooses a path of light and love. And does it with such ease and grace.
He's the kid who will always play with other kids that have bullied him in the past. Whenever I ask him why he still plays with these boys who have hurt his feelings he just looks up at me with those loving little eyes and tells me "Mommy, they are my friends. They are good people, they just make bad choices and I just don't play with them when they make bad choices."
(Blink. Blink. Blink.)
Yes... That is my Muppet. He's a kind and loving soul that is a sage among men eight times his years. He teaches me daily and I admire the little man he is and will grow to be.
So here we were again - he was teaching me another valuable lesson. He knew (and knows) that the MusicMan wasn't replacing Christopher as his dad, only picking up where he left off. He sees our MusicMan as a blessing that while some kids only get one father, Ethan has two that he loves greatly. And knows in his heart that the both of them love him equally as well.
Ethan, in his own way, with only the few little words he spoke, showed me that love is boundless no matter what. That your heart is an endless plain of hope that grows with whatever situation life brings to you. With that comes a great balance that life, God, the universe (whatever you put your faith into) brings into everything you hold dear. Everything in live is a blessing, it's up to us to take time and let love and balance show us how blessed in this life we really are.
Life, is in a way, a trifecta of #love, #balance and #blessings. My Muppet taught me that. You can claim one, both or all three. However, when you have all three life presents itself in a whole new light. One where the world is open to your heart and you to it's. One that brings you peace in the life that you may have never understood.
Life can bring you many things that pull us down. Just the average workday can pull you down. But when you stop. Reflect. Enjoy everything in life. Things change. You're perspective changes. Ethan is blessed because he will soon have two dads. He knows that in his heart and his mind. I am blessed to have a child wiser than his own mommy at times to help enlighten me to things I might have overlooked and stressed one gray hair too many over. We are both blessed to have a man in our lives that makes us feel so very special no matter what is going on in either of our lives. He's there for us when we need him the most. And so our lives are filled with #love, #balance and #blessings.
