Happy Birthday, My Love

To my dearest love; Christopher,

Saturday would have been your 34th birthday. I woke up that morning thinking about you and went to bed thinking about you. Your memories filled my thoughts constantly throughout the day. I find it strange that your birthday was the 6month marker for your services - it was like you always planned it that way. But then again you always did have your way when it came to certain things-especially when it held a symbolic meaning.

To say I miss you is an understatement, to say that my love has grown leaps and bounds for you in these 6 months would be a gross trivialization of the truth and to say that this can only get easier.... it will never get easy, I just learn how to live with the situation a litter better as time goes on.

In thinking about you Saturday - I heard a song. I felt like you brought this song to me (because Lord knows I don't listen to this person). I have always felt you there when I have needed you the most and I know you will be here for Ethan and I, now and in the future when we need you and for that I love you...always and unconditionally.

You always told me that it's not about the storm - but rather how we weather the rain. So to say this song is like you speaking me... well I get it...

"There will always be another mountain, I am always going to want to make it move, Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm going to have to lose, It's not about how fast I get there or what's on the other side. It's about the climb...."

Happy Birthday My Love.

Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - The Climb lyrics

Ethan's Bill

For sometime I have rolled around this idea in my head that for awhile I thought it was more of a fleating random thought of conciousness; but it's not. This idea has been growing in my head and it's now to the point where I need to do something with it - I feel drawn to this path.

It's call it "Ethan's Bill" and it's a bill that I would like to try and get passed in congress. I know this is a huge undertaking, but I feel like this is something that I need to do (at the very least try to get people aware of it). The bill would state if a child's blood parent is diagnosed with any form of cancer before the child is of age 21, genetic testing can be done to find out the risk for the child to have the cancer gene and if it is found that the child does have the gene to be pre-deposed to cancer then 1 - insurance can't say it's preexisting if cancer is found later in life and 2 - routine testing for that child be covered under insurance no matter the age. I'm sure there would be more to the bill, but for now that's the bare bones of it all.

Again, I know this is a HUGE undertaking, but it's something I feel drawn to do. Does anyone out there have any insight on how I would get this started - are their forms? Or if anyone knows anyone that I could talk to about this?